about to pick up.:

It's been rather uneventful these past few weeks, because of my current monetary situation. Yes, that bitching company I used to work for has not given me what's rightfully mine. It's time to take matters into my own hands. Nice guys finish last; it's time to be bad.

On a much much lighter note, I've spent the past three days engaged in family planned activities. It was to make up for the short excursion to Batam that was cancelled last Sunday. Well, only the karaoke session on that Sunday night was supposed to replace that trip, but went out the day after to Orchard Road, the worst place to be on Christmas Eve... with all those last minute shoppers jostling on the streets, with school kids on vacation only adding to the ludicrous human traffic.

I didn't do any shopping or purchasing; I was just tailing my cousin and aunt around because they wanted to get stuff. I just thought that I haven't been out of the house for quite awhile, so this would be a pretty good idea, to throw me back into civilisation.

I heard someone mention that she fears staying at home for too long, lest it makes her dumber. And I think that's what's happening to me right now. When I was out on Christmas Eve, I was so disoriented. I couldn't pay attention to someone who's talking to me for more than 20 seconds. I would zone out and my vision would regularly go out of focus. Unless people checked my pupils for dilation, they'd think I was blitzed on grass.

But is it really from being cooped up at home for too long or the fact that I slept only 5 hours the night before and haven't had my coffee? I would want it to be the latter because I refuse to believe that I'm responsible for devolving myself. Yes, denial makes me feel better. Bite me.

I think all I need to get me back on my toes is proper exercise. I need to get out and stimulate my muscles. Even when I was working an office job back then, walking to the office, to lunch and back home is physical work... physical work that I'm not getting by barricading myself up at home doing nothing. I need to go for regular walks.

And oh yeah, I haven't smoked in over 2 weeks. I'm quitting totally. What a good way to end the year.